A True GideonBlue Celebration, Thank You!

As I sat there on our porch watching the sunrise, I felt like the world stopped.  I found myself in a different place.  Not really fully here and with a big piece of my heart firmly planted in Heaven, Gideon’s Birthday felt like it was a day set apart.  A day set aside for Gideon and for all those who loved him so.  It was a blessed swirl of peace, sadness, joy, love and celebration.  Also a swirl of BLUE!

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It was a little chilly and it was early, but it was perfect.  Both Faith and David greeted us fully dressed, before we even woke up, and said "We are ready to watch Gideon's sunrise."
It was a little chilly and it was early, but it was perfect. Both Faith and David greeted us fully dressed, before we even woke up, and said “We are ready to watch Gideon’s sunrise.”

David and Faith, our oldest two decided that morning that they really didn’t want to be apart from us that day.  So, Gideon’s Birthday trumped school and they all stayed home for, what ended up becoming, blueapalooza.  Blue hair mousse, blue rock painting, blue flower planting, and blue washing off and causing a full out water fight that ended with the inside of our entire garage being hosed down.  At one point my thought honestly was, “Truly you are not fit for parenting on this day.”  And its true, I really wasn’t.

Blue Hair Mousse...seemed like an innocent enough idea.  Ummmm not so much.  Blue HAIR mousse turned into blue face, forehead and ears mousse.
Blue Hair Mousse…seemed like an innocent enough idea. Ummmm not so much. Blue HAIR mousse turned into blue face, forehead and ears mousse.
"Mommy, can we paint the rock in our garden Gideon Strong for his birthday??"  "Sure kids why not?"...This is why not...
“Mommy, can we paint the rock in our garden Gideon Strong for his birthday??” “Sure kids why not?”…This is why not…
Apparently washing blue paint off of your hands also entails washing your entire body which includes your newly applied blue hair mousse!
Apparently washing blue paint off of your hands also entails washing your entire body which includes your newly applied blue hair mousse!
Yup, even the dog was blue.
Yup, even the dog was blue.

But as I stepped back (taking deep breathes in an attempt to fully not care about the epic mess we were making) it became clear to me that this is exactly Gideon’s gift to our family.  Tuesday was about him.  A little baby who brought peace, healing and wholeness to our family.  A peace that often looks like chaos.  A peace beyond reason, that in the depths of sorrow and loss there is still hope and joy available.  A truth from God, that His ways are not our ways and that yes sometimes monstrously sized messes, turmoils, and losses can be coupled by some of life’s deepest blessings.  That GideonBlue explosion was a perfect picture of legacy, and I was so thankful for it.

Soon we were ready to head to the cemetery for our balloon release and the kids were extra excited for our “car ride full of balloons!”  We had a simple time planned.  Write Gideon messages on our balloons, Dave was going to pray, David shared his memory verse John 14:27, Faith read the story of Gideon in the Bible, and my job was just the “thank you.”  It was there that the hard moments came for me.  The tears of a Momma simply sad her boy is not here.  And as I blubbering cried in front of my entire family I took a deep breath and remembered that its okay.  That is what we are supposed to do when we lose someone that we love.  Its going to hurt.  It just is.

Faith did such an amazing job reading her story and David told his verse loud and proud!
Faith did such an amazing job reading her story and David told his verse loud and proud!

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You were such a huge part of our day.  Your GideonBlue pictures are implanted on these hearts of ours forever.  Your prayers and love and joy for Gideon’s life were deeply felt and they lifted up our family all day.  I went overboard, but I basically posted every single GideonBlue pic I could get my hands on!  To all the sweet ones on Instagram, I couldn’t grab those, but I have scrolled through them just about a million times.

Thank you for making Gideon’s birthday so special.  Thank you for allowing his little life to impact yours.  Thank you thank you for our GideonBlue celebration.

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4 thoughts on “A True GideonBlue Celebration, Thank You!

  1. Love the celebration!

    I will be emailing you soon. You probably don’t know. . . but I lost my baby last week at 20 weeks, and had to be induced to deliver him over the Easter weekend. His service was yesterday. . . a boy! I thought of you often, Maria and all the encouragement you have passed on after losing Gideon. It has truly helped me these past few days. This has been the hardest week of my entire life, but I know God is working for a greater good that I cannot even begin to understand. Praying for that peace that passes all human understanding.

    1. Oh Brittnie, I am so so sorry to hear about your precious little boy. My heart breaks for you because I know the pain you are feeling right now. I will pray for you sweet sister. And do email me. I have a woman from across the country that emailed all my wild and crazy to simply because I knew she had been where I was. Lifting up you and your family right now, that God’s presence be full and strong for you in these days and that you allow your heart to still have hope even through the pain.

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