What is it all for anyway? What we have (what we don’t have), the way we look (the way we don’t look), what we choose for our lives (what we don’t choose)?
I ask myself this question because most of us, no matter the stage in life we are in, live in survival mode.
Teens…day to day live in a turmoil of decisions and emotions. Many times, after making the wrong decisions based on those emotions, they feel worse. They feel devalued. Less capable, and then the cycle begins again. “What is it all for anyway?” they ask. “What does it actually matter?” I confess, most times I just pray for them to survive these years. Just get through them, it will be better “someday.”
Then “someday” happens and maybe you go to college. College comes with a new, different turmoil. All of a sudden you are “in charge.” In someways its better, you can even like eat candy for breakfast if you want to. But in other ways, its scary. The finality of life begins to set in and whether its grades, dates, or job applications…you are trying to enjoy this season of life because everyone is always telling you (insert granny voice with a pointed finger) “Now you enjoy these years dearie cause they don’t last forever!” And then you are like, “Yeah right, I can’t wait to get a job…my own place…” It has got to get better “someday” right?
It is all normal. Good even. It is a wonderful part of becoming. It is the foundation that I pray about. Circumstances come and circumstances go. Mistakes will happen and you will make choices you regret. You will feel ugly some days, and other days…hmmmmm maybe even beautiful. Some days you will raise your hands high, as far as you can stretch them and say, “Thank you God! This is amazing…” Other days, you will fall to your knees, and weepingly ask God “Why? Why would allow such a thing…”
What is your foundation?
What do you actually believe?
At the end of the day, when the waves come crashing in and the winds threaten to blow you over what do you cling to?
These are important questions to ask. Your life depends on the answers you choose.
I don’t know many things and most days life just leaves me confused, wearied, burdened, looking at myself in the mirror seeing nothing but “majorly flawed” pasted on my forehead.
But stand firm I will. Not because I am better than anyone, or because I have eloquent rants about why I believe what I believe, or because I have proof to offer. But because if I didn’t, the storm would win. You are too important to let the storm win.
What is your house made of?