A little over a year ago I remember sitting in this very office, crying, and praying. I just felt alone. Have you ever felt like that? That as a woman, as a mom, as a friend you were just trudging through days by yourself? The thoughts inside my head grew louder than the blessings in my life and I felt trapped. Life gets busy, for sure. And if we don’t have moments, moments with people we love, that force us to stop in our tracks and forget about details for awhile…well (at least for me anyway) I start getting grouchy, unthankful, and whiney. I promise you, this is not the type of woman I want to be.
So I prayed for friends. Lots of friends. Awesome friends. I prayed for the friendships I had to grow deeper and new ones to come out of the woodwork. It was a specific, deep cry of my heart. That was a year ago.
I share with you these pictures below to give you a tangible vision of what it looks like for God to answer prayers. It didn’t happen over night. To be honest, it took me awhile to even realize how massive His answer was. Today may I be a living testimony to how specifically God hears our prayers. How in the deepest recesses of our souls He knows us, loves us, and wants true life for us.
Here I am, one year later celebrating oldness with those nearest and dearest to my heart. Even on this day of celebration I reflected back and thought how unworthy I felt to receive such blessings. Insecurity always does that doesn’t it? It tries to sneak in and snatch the joy right out of a darn good moment! But, its not about me, its about Him and how precious and perfect of a savior He is to always hold us when we need it most, challenge us when we desperately need growth, and dote on us with adoration when we are feeling lowest.
Here is a small glimpse of the joy in my heart…even though I turned old. (I’m kidding about the old part. Kind of.)
karriedobie says
Love you friend! Hope we get to celebrate together when I “turn old” 🙂
trueworth says
You betcha! I’m there 🙂
Kate says
Well if you’re old, then I’m ancient at 33! 😉 I think your 30s are way better than your 20s. You get all apply the wisdom you learned in your 20s and really create a life you want.
Thank you for this reminder. I needed this today, I am at the point that you were a little over a year ago.
Can’t remember if I’ve commented here before (I think I did somewhere?!?), but love the blog. I follow on FB too, so appreciate when you post a link to a new post over there. I have two year old twin girls, which God has blessed me with and challenged me to get over my own neuroses before they’re old enough to absorb them and take them on myself, and to pray for them for those neuroses are genetic and they are doomed to repeat. 😉
Kate says
PS So happy for you that you have great friends and family! So wonderful.
trueworth says
Hi Kate! It was so wonderful to hear from you today. You are right about the 30’s thing…I can sense your wise words being played out already! I am so thankful for you, a fellow Mom of youngins and I HEAR you sister about the neuroses thing.
I am going to pray for you this moment, that God will bring women into your life that will walk alongside you, pray for you, and love on you. You can bug Him tirelessly until He gives you some…that’s what I did 😉
caroline says
AMEN to answered prayers! the ladies that i know in the pictures above are just as blessed to have you in their life! love you!
trueworth says
Caroline, you are so sweet! I wish I could have warped you here 🙂
nestergirl says
I LOVE those pictures, and am SO glad your dad took them. and the one with you and your 30 glasses? priceless. I always forget to take pictures with you all, why? Such a joy to know you, Maria. Happy 30!
reeve says
I love you Maria and I’m so very sad I missed your celebration. I wanted to be there!! But it looks like you had a fantastic time:) Hope to see you soon!
Reeve Coobs (@ReeveMusic) says
I love you Maria and I’m so very sad I missed your celebration. I wanted to be there!! But it looks like you had a fantastic time:) Hope to see you soon!
trueworth says
O Reeve! I missed you so much too! I wish I could have packaged up everyone and had them there, Caroline especially too! But you are ALL a part of the reason why I am so thankful for answered prayers.
Cherie says
Your post encourages my hope into faith. Friends of substance are a blessing! I pray God restores and old friendship into a new one and I am looking forward to all the new friends he is sending my way. Amen….
dating tips says
I know this if off topic but I’m looking into starting my own blog and was wondering what all is needed to get set up? I’m assuming having a blog like yours
would cost a pretty penny? I’m not very web smart so I’m not 100% certain. Any suggestions or advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks
trueworth says
I would love to chat through blogging with you! It really is a piece of cake, and a lot less expensive than you might think. Shoot me an email and we can talk more in detail…maria@trueworthministries.org.
Ann says
I know this is an old post, but I stumbled upon it in a weird way. And thought it wasn’t at all what I was looking for, it was exactly what I needed to see/read. I did the desperate pleading to God for friends thing only a couple weeks ago, and honestly this week has been rough. Like I feel He’s choosing to ignore my request. And then there’s this post, randomly landing in front of me today. It brings hope. Thank you.
trueworth says
Ann,
Hope, even in the midst of a desert time, is one of the greatest gifts. I pray that little glimpses of hope continue to come into your days and fear not…God has NOT forgotten you. One day the floodgates will open and you will see the perfection of His timing and His vast love for you. For now, push on, one tiny bit of hope at a time. I am so thankful for you my sister and friend.